lol.. not really... i'm not even sure myself. LOL
Dear, Leisa Dear...
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
Untitled for anyone
It's today. You went away a week before Valentines' Day. The saddest thing is, it's not that my valentine is ruined but it's just that you're not around anymore. I wondered what happened to the things that used to be. Everything changed when we went high school. But one thing remained the same, you.
I remembered us trying to be the prince and princess when we were little and growing up loving music together. You'd be singing sweet melodies while I create the perfect tune for your beautiful voice. Remember we used to play pranks on our home-room teacher every April Fools Day and we would get busted for doing those things?
But there was something else wasn't it? You were hiding it with your smile but your eyes told me you were crying. You looked happy when we stood at the edge of the world together. You told me that you would help other people, remember? You'll put a big smile on your face but not for long, you'll put on a long sad frown on your face.
As we grew older, your pain showed. It became obvious but still, you were stubborn to even let me help you. You wanted to prove against the world that you're stronger but you know what, I knew that every step on the way, you became weaker. I wondered if you realized I was always leaning a shoulder for you to cry on, I gave you a helping hand so you'd be able to stand up on your shaking feet. But you never did.
As we went to high school, people told me you were losing grip. My new friends said that you are only a pain to handle but still, I insisted to be with you.
I knew you were in pain; I saw it right through you. You said no one loved you and they don't care; but I always poured out my love to you. You say people looked down on you, but I've always tried to bring you back up. I managed to make you smile but that's not it. You're tired of smiling. You wanted peace.
Remember we spent our summer vacation in Meadow Field*? Were you not in peace? I never asked but you told me you were. Although you're lying, I still believed in you. I don't know why. When I was having my school prom, I decided not to go because I saw you crying alone in the park. You were giving up.
Did you just say you were giving up? Don't tell me you just said that! "Take it back!" I said. But your tears chocked you up and your pain took over your feelings. Then it hit me, you're alone now. No, you ran away from yourself and that is why no one could look for you. I wondered what went wrong? Your family loved you dearly but you said it was all lies. I don't know.
And on the 8th of February, you were already gone. Everyone called your name but you did not answer, you left. Without saying a word. All you left was a piece of papaer saying "I'm sorry" and next to it was a lifeless body. It was smiling to everyone but no one smiled back.
I thought we knew about each other. I guess I just didn't know you. You never shared anyone about your pain or your secrets. After I read your diary, then I regretted. I should've saved you. You were battling with your own demons and I didn't know.
I only have good things about you in my memories although you grew up drowning yourself in your own nightmares.
About your parents, they are trying to help innocent young girl like you to stay strong. I want to thank you for coming in my life. Thank you for showing me what life is about. Thank you, Giselle.
*Fictional settings.
AUTHORS NOTE: UP TO YOU TO DECIDE WHAT REALLY HAPPENED TO THE GIRL. IT'S ALREADY STATED THAT EVEN THE PERSONA DIDN'T KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER. THANK YOU. COPYRIGHT!
Saturday, October 23, 2010
May I ask another q? Sorry... But I really like your style (lol) ummm... why when I wear my lense, I have those red veins(?) or whatever it's called but my friend doens't have. >.< It's annoying sometimes.
May I ask another q? Sorry... But I really like your style (lol) ummm... why when I wear my lense, I have those red veins(?) or whatever it's called but my friend doens't have. >.< It's annoying sometimes.
Answer here
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Rainbow- Mach lyrics
can't stop can't stop get it now can't stop can't stop bring it now
can't stop can't stop do it now
bich boda bbareugae ddwideon shimjangi
bich boda bbareugae naegae meonjeo
i'm getting closer now
bich boda bbareudeon neomane somsshiro
nareul gajyeoga dagawabwa nareul chaega mameulchaega
any one way.. any any one one way
any one way out.. oh ye.. oh ye
nareul ijji malajweo nae noonbich ijji malajweo
na-aegae soongan dagaseollae ee soongan mami seollae
niga nareul bbaeseojweo meonjeo wa nareul bbaeseojweo
nae jajonshim da bbaeseojoollae ni nalkaro-oon sokdoro my heart
mach x 6
can't stop can't stop get it now can't stop can't stop bring it now
can't stop can't stop do it now
bich boda bbareugae beonjin nae mami
bich boda bbareugae naegae jab-hyeo
i'm getting closer now
bich boda ddeugeobdeon neomane shiseonae
soomi mak-hyeoga kkeollyeo man-ga nareul chaegamameul chaega
naereul nohji malajweo neon nareul nohji malajweo
neo-aegae soongan kadweojoollae ee soongan gajyeojoollae
niga nareul jabajweo meonjeo wa nareul jabajweo
nae modeulgeol da geoleobollae ni nalkaro-oon sokdoro my heart
nae anae gashiga sarajinda saero-oon haneuri geuryeojinda
gwisga-ae ni soomi shimjangae ni soomi maha-e sokdoro seumyeodeulda now
any one way.. any any one one way..
any one way out.. oh ye.. oh ye..
can't stop can't stop get it now can't stop can't stop bring it now
can't stop can't stop do it now (x 2)
nareul ijji malajweo nae noonbich ijji malajweo
na-aegae soongan dagaseollae ee soongan mami seollae
niga nareul bbaeseojweo meonjeo wa nareul bbaeseojweo
nae jajonshim da bbaeseojoollae ni nalkaro-oon sokdoro my heart
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Friday, October 15, 2010
Ugly (Sugababes)
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way they show that they wish
That they had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous cos
People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you
There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great
People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you
People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you
Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be
Cos people are all the same
(The same, the same)
And we only get judged by what we do
(What we do, yeah, yeah)
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
(Yeah, you)
So are you
So are you
People are all the same
(Oh, oh, oh)
And we only get judged by what we do
(What we do, yeah)
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
(Yeah, so are you)
So are you
So are you
Sunday, October 10, 2010
what is the 1 biggest mistake u did?
that is a lot. but the number 1 biggest mistake is: letting go of someone I love.