i hate this..

I just hate this past few weeks. One, I got this fucking rash and it might be the hair dye and I just dyed my hair black again. Two, I am seriously fucking worried about my self. My mum says I look skinny cuz I don't eat much (?). Maybe I am. Three, I just can't think anymore. Four, my parents wanted to bring me to the Dr again but sigh... it's really hard for me to go (because of the last time i got rashes). Five, someone doesn't understand what I mean when I said, "I'm worried about my parents cuz I don't want them to get worried". It's really a burden when they're worried.

I'd rather have this sickness and die. At least my parents don't have to worry about money to spend on me. If this is my last Christmas, I would want it to be the greatest Christmas ever. Joy to the world~