Shopping with friends!

SO! Today is Wednesday. Kokum time....

Went out with Michelle a.k.a Louise, Tess, Evelyn, Roberta, Faradiana, and somehow a new comer... HSU CHIAU LI (is that how you spell her name?? I dunno). But anyways... yeah.

We went to Karamunsing right after Kelab meetings and... it's was cool. haha.

We ate at... Usagi Japanese Restaurant and don't ask how much I payed. Well, I'm not bragging. It's nice to do this once in a while. :) Relieve stress. :)

We went in like ALL of the shops that sells clothes. Not all of them. But, you get my point. Don't you? Moving on... I bought.... pants, and vest. :P (CHEAPER THAN THE ONE I BOUGHT ONLINE FTW!!!!!!)

I payed RM10 deposit for the hat :) Now left is... RM35. Wow, they're giving me discounts~ :)) Niceee.. Maybe I go there tomorrow. Or Megalong. Not sure. Where ah??

Funny

I got a stomach ache today and was absent. I went and check my old msn and... WOW. For how long was I offline? =.=""

Horny people add me up and they think I'm a guy. That is just... sweet. =.="

You guys are sad. Go find some REAL GUY to talk to alright?

Thanxiee~~

Talk

Today, I went to the chapel with my mum. Sitting down.. I've thought about A LOT of things. First, of course about my own addiction. Second, about my business I've just started. Thirdly, my ex.

The reasons why I was thinking about my ex is because I want to talk to him again. I want us to forget about the past. Admit that we can never be together, forgive one another and move on together.

I know what I did was wrong and I regretted it. I just felt that my heart had betrayed me soo much. Let me be honest, I still haven't forget about him. Even if he now maybe has someone new, I don't think I mind it 'cause I know we can't ever be together.

I sent him a message in fb just now. Maybe he won't reply but if that is his answer to my question, let me admit defeat humbly. I'm just human and I know it was MY mistake.

Sure, I'm angry when I heard he say like that to Aly, but.. It all started because of me.

If you're reading this Alex, I just want to know this. I want to be friends with you and I'll respect your decision if you say no. I'm tired trying to ignore myself knowing you. You already came into my life once and I'm not and NEVER the type of girl to forget about our friendship.

Sounds cheesy? yeah. But this is me being honest. Please, Reality, be kind to me. It's my first step after 3 months ignoring him. Be nice to me, will you?

new chapter. Well, trying.

Well, may is here and everything seems to be the same. Everyday, I'm trying to forget about heartaches and sweet memories. I just can't seem to forget.

There's this one guy who make me laugh :)
I do like him but:
1) my kawan punya ex.
2) I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.
3) I keep on thinking HE'LL be back for me (which I know HE WONT)
4) does he even like me?
5) I know both my friend and him still have feelings for each other.

Complicated, right? Yeah....

If I want someone new to be with, I want a guy just make me happy and a mature thinking. Someone like my ex but don't be like my ex. I just want to love him as how I loved my ex before. Can?

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