Talk

Today, I went to the chapel with my mum. Sitting down.. I've thought about A LOT of things. First, of course about my own addiction. Second, about my business I've just started. Thirdly, my ex.

The reasons why I was thinking about my ex is because I want to talk to him again. I want us to forget about the past. Admit that we can never be together, forgive one another and move on together.

I know what I did was wrong and I regretted it. I just felt that my heart had betrayed me soo much. Let me be honest, I still haven't forget about him. Even if he now maybe has someone new, I don't think I mind it 'cause I know we can't ever be together.

I sent him a message in fb just now. Maybe he won't reply but if that is his answer to my question, let me admit defeat humbly. I'm just human and I know it was MY mistake.

Sure, I'm angry when I heard he say like that to Aly, but.. It all started because of me.

If you're reading this Alex, I just want to know this. I want to be friends with you and I'll respect your decision if you say no. I'm tired trying to ignore myself knowing you. You already came into my life once and I'm not and NEVER the type of girl to forget about our friendship.

Sounds cheesy? yeah. But this is me being honest. Please, Reality, be kind to me. It's my first step after 3 months ignoring him. Be nice to me, will you?